It’s late. I need to wake up early, later on today, but I had to jot this down whilst it was still fresh in my mind.
I had to read my Bible tonight. My father’s already on my neck and I forsee a good reprimanding coming up in the next few hours so I decided to boost myself up before it happened.
So, whilst laying comfortably in bed, I got my phone, opened the Bible app, chose Matthew, closed my eyes and randomly picked a chapter and then pressed 1 and begun to read. And I was reading. And familiarising myself with the Pharisees asking Jesus about divorce and then I got to verse 8.
And it says, (KJV)
He saith unto them, Moses because of the hardness of your hearts suffered you to put away your wives: but from the beginning it was not so.
And I think I had an epiphany. As soon as my eyes traced over the words “but from the beginning it was not so” I started to think about a chapter of Genesis. Genesis 5 and 6 (I lied it’s two chapters…I didn’t know at the time. Forgive me). How God shortened man’s life to 120 years because His Spirit “will not contend with[a] humans forever, for they are mortal[b]; their days will be a hundred and twenty years.” That’s NIV. If you click on that little b after mortal, it will give you an alternative meaning for mortal, “or corrupt” it says. I also checked some other versions, KJV said flesh instead of mortal. And most of the time when you come across flesh in the Bible it’s not a literal stuff-underneath-your-skin, it tends to refer to sin. And then I found this “the physical body as functioning entity; in Paul’s thought esp., all parts of the body constitute a totality known as flesh, which is dominated by sin to such a degree that wherever flesh is, all forms of sin are likewise present, and no good thing can live.” and it’s true, quite often you read about Paul and flesh. He talks about the fleshy desires, and how these things are sinful. So in a way flesh = sin, however not in ALL contexts. I would argue based on that little b, that KJV referring to flesh is actually referring to sin, as in the original Greek translation. Which would make sense, God says that He cannot be contending with humans forever, that His spirit cannot strive with humans. And I think that’s because God and sin are mutually exclusive. If that can be said. Like two parallel lines. It’s like God has seen the evilness brewing amongst humans and the fact that they’re living up to a 1000 years (seen in the chapter 5) with this evilness, He can’t deal with it anymore. He has to put a limit, a gage, in order for the competition to stop. I hope that makes sense?
And then I also thought of us, human beings, and how we find ourselves in situations that give us grave displeasure but yet like to play the blame game with God. And I remembered Psalm 23 “even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death”. We’re very inclined to forget that pronoun, you (I in the verse) were the one that took yourself there, not God. And we forget about the previous three verses as well, where David talks about the Lord being his shepherd, him not lacking, lying down in green pastures, laying beside still waters. That was the beginning of the chapter, that was the beginning for David, for us. That was God’s plan, and God’s plan is first and foremost. So verse 4 is your own doing, and thus “from the beginning it was not so“. From the get go, this wasn’t in the plan. Initially, this wasn’t part of the original budget.
Let me not abandon the first part of verse 8 in Matthew either, Jesus talks about Moses giving people the divorce paper as an option because “of the hardness of your hearts”, the reason why God said let man live for 120 years is because man is flesh, flesh is sin and sin is a result of the hardness of our hearts.
The Lord saw how great the wickedness of the human race had become on the earth,and that every inclination of the thoughts of the human heart was only evil all the time.6 The Lord regretted that he had made human beings on the earth, and his heart was deeply troubled.
The wickedness of the human race, the thoughts of the human heart was only evil…
Jeremiah 17:9, Mark 7:21. Reiterates this. That the heart of man is wicked.
Therefore is it safe to say that the wickedness of our hearts and us changing our own fates/destiny is related?
If you ever truly think about it, do some self evaluation as my mother calls it, when you took that wrong turn weren’t you angry with God? Wasn’t something foreign brewing inside you, fuelling you to go another way? Hadn’t you already thrown shade at God by that point? Wasn’t your heart full of wickedness when you took that turn? When you walked through the valley of the shadow of darkness?
You asked why isn’t God doing this and you decided to play God? Just like Satan…
And let’s not get it twisted, evil doesn’t have to manifest itself with fire, horns and overdoses of black and red. How many times have you come across an individual that looks “innocent” but you start to question them after seeing or hearing them do certain things? Evil can be being manipulative, evil can be lying, evil can be wishing the worst on your enemy.
I guess the comforting factor is the latter part of that faithful verse 4 in chapter 23 of Psalm, David talks about not fearing any evil because “you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” You left God in that moment, but He didn’t leave you. He knows you, and He knows what you’re going to do waaaay before anyone else will. So His plan isn’t something to question. We forget that we are the clay in His hands, and the clay cannot speak to the potter and say “no, I want to be moulded this way”. And one other thing we forget is that, the clay cannot move by itself…but the potter can chuck the clay away.